Dec 19, 2004
Fallin' Down
Last night i was super excited to go home, so i could wrap the presents i bought. But when i entered the house i was terrified coz of the loud voices in the house. Now that made me so frightened. My mom's sis and her husband are fighting again. I hate to see them fighting each other coz it always makes me remember of how my mom and dad fought each other when i was young. All I did was i got inside and run as fast as I could upstairs so i could get into my room and hide in there. To avoid all the noise downstairs.
After a few minutes it went silent, and then I decided to go downstairs. As I was tip-toeing I didnt realize the stairs was so slippery and I didnt hold on to the railings, and in seconds i fell down the stairs again. Now the second time i fell probably hurt most than the first one coz i fell halfway from the second floor. And my back hurts like hell, but then my aunt and his husband hurried to see if i was ok. I was happy then coz i know they were not fighting anymore. It was worth falling from the stairs.. lol
People are everywhere and the streets are are over busy.. its really CHRISTMAS!!!
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Dec 18, 2004
Still..
I had so much fun today.. yay!! he is soo cute hehe
Aww.. I made him cry.. i like teasing him coz, he would do that look all the time hehe..
Waves Hello to everyone.. whew he likes doin that
I wanna touchhh the monitorrrr..
Me Baby is a pizza freak..
Watcha lookin at baby ;)
Whew he was with me at work.. it was a mess really but theres no one at home to take care of him so i guess i had no choice but to bring him here.. but i had to bring him back at the house later. By now i cant do anything here at work... he messes up my workplace..
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Dec 17, 2004
My Sunshine
At the moment my mind is blank.. I know what I'm going to write but the problem is i cant find the right words to express it.. hehe
I'm happy now and i have so many reasons to smile. I got a job again so I'll be over busy again for the coming days or even months. And yes, my sunshine is also with me. About me being sick.. nah i try not to think about it anymore. Im just trying to enjoy everything and besides its christmas.
Hmm.. speaking of christmas, I had to do a lot of shopping since i have so many inaanak's haha.. I bought a pair of sandals yesterday for me. Yay its soo cute and i love it.. and its not that expensive too. I was a bit upset yesterday because I had to do some groceries and stuff at home, it was like people are everywhere, and traffic was bad. The normal 1-hour grocery went till 3 hours argghh..
I havent have the slightest idea of what im gonna give my favorite baby cousin.. but my sunshine told me he has something special for me on Christmas.. Now that made me super excited. Huhu I want to give him something also.. But what would it be?? HELPPPPPP...
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Dec 14, 2004
Hearts Are Broken Everyday
Hearts are broken everyday... including mine. I had a rough night, still thinking of the confrontation between me and my bestfriend. He came all the way from Davao with his wife of course to spend christmas here with his family. It was the first time we talked since he told me he was getting married and that was like a year ago. I didnt even make it to his wedding. Sad but true, it broke my heart knowing i was too late to return his love for me. And we accidentally met last night, we just bumped into each other while i was going home from work.
And there he noticed a little ring in my hand, his smile suddenly went away and he told me "Oh your getting married?" I just gave him a smile.. and then out of no where he bursted "Why in the hell are you getting married?"
"... just because i told you that i maybe i'm getting married does not give you the right to deprive me from my own happines, was i ever bitter when you got married... ok fine i was and it hurts but what can i do I'm just your bestfriend... all I can do is be happy for you."
And then I ran away from him. I didn't let him talk, i just want to go home and cry. I felt like my house was so far, but it was like 5 blocks from work. I gave up on running coz i cant breathe, I'm having asthma.. argghh... Just when i was about to cry someone held my hand. It was Raphael, my doctor. He just smiled at me and hugged me..
Raphael walked me home, kissed me goodnight..(erm.. sa cheeks lang.. baka intriga na naman me ni yen Hehe) and told me He'll see me tomorrow at work..
Owss... how good can life get?
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Dec 11, 2004
EXTRA EXTRA
Hehe... o d bah bongga.. for a change gagawa ako ng isang post dito sa blog ko in Tagalog.. Hay naku sa tinagal na wla akong masulat.. ewan ko lang.. ngaun andito ako sa cafe nag babantay at naka tanaw sa kawalan at bigla ko na lang na isip.. sadya ba talgang malungkot ang buhay o tayo lang ang nagpapalungkot nito.. mahirap mag basa ng mga bagay na tungkol sa ibang tao at minsan sa d inaasahan ng pagkakataon bigla kang nasasangkot dun.
Ang gulo talaga ng buhay ng tao.. pero bat ko ba naisipan ko tong sinulat ko ngaun? ewan ko rin.. siguro para sau to dad at para na rin k baby.. Hahaha.. alam mo na kung sino ka.. hindi nga kita masayado nababangit dito pero alam mo na kung ano at sino ka sa buhay ko. Ayaw na rin kitang bigyang ng pangalan dito baka ma intriga ako bwahaha.. mahirap na..shado na akong maraming pinag daanan at ayaw ko ng daming gulo.. oii.. pero d ba promise ko sau na ill write something about you.
eh dad eto lang masasabi ko sau.. Kung saan man ako patungo, ang puso ko ay patuloy pa ring maiiwan dito kasama ka =)
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Dec 6, 2004
A Prayer For Every Year
Its already the second sunday of the advent, indeed Christmas is near. There's too many things to think about, but i just want to celebrate Christmas with my Family here. And I'm trying hard to make things feel right.
Oh Yeah I got across this cute song.. ;)
A PRAYER FOR EVERY YEAR
Do you remember me long ago on bended knee?
I prayed to You with childhood fantasys.
Well, I’m all grown up now.
Can You still help somehow?
I’m not a child but my heart still can dream.
Please hear my prayer tonight
And help me do what’s right.
Not for myself but for the world in need.
No more lives torn apart.
That wars would never start.
And time would heal all hearts.
Every man would have a friend.
And right would always win.
And love would never end.
This is my prayer for every year.
May kindness rule our lives.
Not just the strong survive.
Sweet tears for all the thousand years gone by.
This is the world, I pray, we will share someday.
And we begin by reaching out my hand.
What is this illusion called?
The innocence of youth.
Maybe only in that fine belief will we ever find the truth.
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Dec 1, 2004
Broken Smile, Broken Heart, Broken Love
Its a f*cked up world.. like hell i care.. Its not anything about the HOAX Malaine was talking about.. Its just that my life is soooo damn sad. It's hard to love and not be loved in return or maybe i was loved but i cant feel a thing. I'm numb of that love... but yet im hurt.
I might not make sense.. but i cant explain it myself. Everything is too complicated. If you ask me if what or who im talking about, i cant even tell you. But yeah somehow i told someone about it, unfortunately we're on the same situation. Two confused persons, how can we help each other??
I'm tired of pretending to be ok.. I'm tired of those fake smiles i gave everyone and most of all im tired of not being me.
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Nov 24, 2004
Because I'm A Girl
These past few days i felt like something inside me died. I felt empty and my world stopped. I felt helpless and alone. It was a sad feeling to go through but as the days pass i find myself writing here again.
I saw a Korean video on TV I dont even understand the lyrics but i cried while i was watching the video, it was the saddest thing ever. I cant stop thinking about the video so i have to find it's english translation so here it goes..
Because Im A Girl - Kiss
Loose translation:
I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy
You should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again
you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
[narration]
Hey babe
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you
Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
U didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
Although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
So all in all i was having a rough weekend and still fighting through a loss of someone. Im even more upset because i fell down the stairs and damn it hurt so bad i thought i had my head banged through the stairs luckily im alright. *sigh* what is happening to mehhh...
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Nov 20, 2004
Goodbye My Friend
As I write this, I know you have passed and you will never get to read this. But I know in my heart that in your own way you have touched my life and said your goodbye. But why? Why didn't I ever noticed it was the last goodbye. I should have stop and took that time, but i guess i didnt. I love you and you will always be remembered by me. It will never be easy getting by without you, I thought you are the one who is going to stay longer, now you are the one who is telling me to go on as you will go one. Weird because i was the one who told you that line. Your memories will always be with me and I will be with you in time. Goodbye me dear friend...
I wrote this letter to my friend minutes after his niece told me she passed away.. which is 15mins before writing this post.
I'm always the last person she talks to when something happens to her.. *sigh* I'm gonna miss her forever..
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Nov 14, 2004
Something about Loving ÜÜÜ
I read an article on a daily newspaper which was dated years ago and it wrote something like these:
To love somebody truly is only manifested when an opportunity rises when you have every reason to hate the person but don't. Some people can call you stupid for taking in such a bitter pill. When a bitter pill ceases to become a bitter pill but a point when the most genuine of emotions reveal themselves and bring together the fragments created by imagined fears.
I had this kind of relationship, it was hard because people are always telling me how stupid I am of still keeping the relationship. But I guess in the end after reading this article, I feel good about myself. Despite of the betrayal, deceit and all the thorns that came with it that left me scarred forever, I chose to break the rules I have impose on myself and discovered the greater confidence of love that we have nurtured carefully. ÜÜÜ
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