When i thought i was over him, i start to think about him again. I was checking my Friendster and then i thought what if i try to see his profile again. I even thought that he deleted me in his friends list, coz that was what he did last time he was angry with me and stuff. I cant even bear the thought that we've drifted apart without knowing why.

I tried everything to calling him and writing him letters but then i didnt receive any reply, i thought maybe he was busy with work. But even so, i just find myself caught up in a situation where the pain he cause me wont cease. The hardest part was trying to live and move on with my life and not a single word from him. Now im too afraid to send anymore letters, or give him a ring. I'm afraid of what he is going to tell me. I'm afraid of what he would tell me about us in the future. But I'm more afraid of him telling me that we'd start over again and be a couple again.